Pure Joy

When people used to ask me, “What was the happiest time of your life?” It was hard to decide up until I started dating my husband.  That topped everything and our wedding day eventually became the happiest moment of my life, but the happiness I feel now that I have a daughter is absolutely indescribable.  I have never been happier and I couldn’t be more blessed.

At our wedding, my dad gave a toast and he said to me, “Courtney, you will never understand how much I love you until you have kids of your own.”  The first time I held her, that played in my head and I thought to myself, “I finally understand.”  I feel pure joy every day because God chose me to be her mom and Andrew to be her dad.  I feel pure bliss knowing that Andrew and I brought the most beautiful human being into this world and she is ours forever.  I couldn’t be happier to go on this journey with him and to think of all the adventures to come.  We are blessed to get to share in this together because she is ours.  I can’t help but smile when I’m around her, when I talk about her, when I look at her, or when I stare at pictures of her.

Oakley’s given me a new identity.  A new identity that I will cherish forever.  I am a mom now, I am Oakley’s mom and that is the greatest title I’ve ever been given.  That is a title I will never take for granted.  Oakley is the most precious gift that we have received.  Our entire world has changed but to be honest, I can’t remember what life was like without her. THIS is what it feels like to live in pure joy every day.  She truly is our sunshine.